HYE ;)

what will happen to me 12 years later? one thing that i am affirmative of is i'm turning 28 on 25 April, i'm a working woman and maybe i'm getting myself prepared for my big day -wedding- . i wanted to end my solo life when i turned 28 and above. y? cuz i was want to have a stable financial and career before i put my commitment into anything else. why the hell am i talking about wedding anyway?! ntah. I am having a super-duper hard time to understand myself either lol. brrrr. i'm done.

merepek meraban

its 12.58 now and i'm still awake. i just logged out from fb and i felt a sudden 'heart break' when i see her photos. she's beautiful and brilliant. who wouldn't want a girl who got this georgous eyes with long eye lashes and its she looked lovely in any dress or cloth. just by looking her photos, i bet she look even more prettier in person. why am i talking about her instead of talking about something else? IDK. anyway, my friends and i are trying our best to set a date and meet somewhere. at first we decided to plan our whatsocalled reunion party at time square. but sai couldn't make it. her mom doesnt let her join us. so we cancelled the whole time square programme and move to alamanda. its mush nearer than times square. the only problem is transportation. since transportation became the major problem, nisa suggested a trip to PD. the trip wil ony cost rm40 only. it did sound cheap . but when i consider the expenses there, i rather spend my time at alamanda instead of PD. the possibties of spending more money in PD is way higher than spending money in alamanda. PD costed me rm40 just for the trip. what about souveniers? i know damn well that i can't resist myself from buying something for my family and friends. one shopping trip could cost me about rm50. since the trip is likely to be 3days and 2nights, i'm positvly sure that i need to spnd money on breakfst, lunch and dinner too. so in total, i'll be spending like more rm100. on the other hand, if i spend my time in alamanda, i wouldn't have to spend much there. rm10 for cinema tckets, rm10 for lunch (mcD) and rm13 for two slices of secret receipe cake. thre's no room for shoping as our time is limited there. the total of my trip to alamanda will only cost me like rm33 only!.that's a huge diffrence!. i had no idea on why am i typing this whole reunion idea. ta kesahlah! okay, i heard the thunderstorm. its time to sign out from blogspot. urm, doodle!.

matlamat hidup dan cita-cita?

orang selalu cakap pasal matlamat hidup. err, selalu ke? entahlah. selalulah kut. dulu masa kecik-kecik, kalau orang tanya nak jadi apa bila dah besar mesti aku akan cakap nak jadi lawyer. pengaruh abah kuat sangat. tu yang bila ditanya, laju jer jawab lawyer. sekarang bila dah masuk 16 tahun, mulalah fikir balik. betul ke aku nak jadi lawyer? kalau ikut minat, terus-terang aku admit aku suka bidang perubatan. dari kecik sampai besar, gown putih doc tu memang tak pernah fail buat aku suka dia. but bila fikir course tu amatlah susah aku rasa aku macam nak stick dengan law. tapi law banyak sangat politik. kalau kerja dengan kerajaan, susah nak naik pangkat pulak tu. nak naik pangkat pun kena ada pakai certain 'cable'. susahkan?. yea, i know. that's how the world workd. malam tadi aku texting dengan mr.specky. dia ada bagitau yang dia tak harap lebih pun dalam SPM ni. dapat 4 atau 5 A pun dah cukup. dia plan nak masuk matrik and from there baru dia nak struggle habis2. he'd missed a lot of class alrdy. -personal reason-. he told me that he wanted to be a doctor. Just from a simple text i can conclude that he KNOWS what he's doing. he got goals in life. me? i don't really know about it either. i'm a science stream student. what the heck am i doing there if i wantd to be a lawyer? well, i like to see things further. kalau aku amik aliran lain, dah tentu2 aku stuck dengan satu jer course which is law. nak proceed dengan bidang seni tu memang tidak lahh. law last option aku. nak amik akaun dah kena bijak pandai dalam math pulak. imbang sana imbang sini boleh buat aku gila. aku and math memang tak pernah bersatu. last option yang ada is science stream. kebetulan cikgu dah offer amik sc, aku terima jelah. mmg a bit risky yerr amek aliran yang kita tak suka. but kalau nak future yang terjamin, mestilah kena take the risk jugak. cikgu pernah jugak tanya, apa bakal lawyer buat dalam kelas sc. ptutnye lawyr ddk kelas lain. buat beban otak jerr blaja sub susah2. mmg btul pun ckap cikgu tu. byngkan, 2 tahun strggle macam nak rak utk score sub sc, tup2 jadi lawyer whch tade kaitan pun dgan sc. mana ada lawyr pakai ilmu fiz, chem and +mt dlam hujah. bio tu ade lah jugk kalau kes tu mlibatkan hospital atau pnyakit. yang +mt tu nak pkai utk ape? mana ada lawyr carik equation straight line kat tgah2 court. mana ada lawyr buat diffrentiation kt dpan hakim. gila apa. lawyr hanya perlu bijak berhujah dan bijak memilih ayat. so, bm and bi amatlah penting. yang lain tu just sampingan jer. aku ada jugak terfikir nak pndah kelas. amik jerr sub yang senang. tapi advntge amik sc stream bnyak. most U akn consdr sc stream stdnt dari stream lain. kelas aku offer est whch mkes it a lot easier to enter any U. sbb advntge ni jugak lah aq still brthan dkt kelas tu. wlaupun rsults tu tade lah menrik mana. +mt tu faild memanjang. but smua tu Insya'Allah aku boleh improve lagi. stakat nak dpat B tu Insya'Allah boleh. ta pun stakat lulus ke. hehe. aku pun takde lah banggang sngat nak tgok rsults teruk. haih. orang cakap hidup ibarat roller coaster. kalau track roller coaster tu pusing-pusing and belit2 mesti best. but kalau track tu strght jer, tak ke bosan tu. hurm, back to my first intention on writtng ths blog.. 'matlamat hidup dan cita-cita?' 2 topic ni memang aku tak pernah fikir pun. yelah, utk teen macam aku, aku suka tempuh easy life. no hardship and lead a happy life. i'm sure that most of us would think of the same way too. sape yg suka hardship?. tak de kan.. but bila fikir balik, orang mana yang hidup senang tanpa usaha? takda pun.. so i guess it wouldn't hurt if i sacrifed my swit slumber time, korean drama n outing maybe? i am alrdy lifeless. sacrificing my outing time really doesn't affct anything in my daily life. korean drama?  urmm, i may need to set a boundry between tv and me. slumber? i'm soooo hoping tht i can sort of reset my mind. reset my sleep timing. reset my atttude. great!. i got a lot of work to do!. i need to RESET everything in life. well, it still just a plan. a plan of changing and turning my life into some sort of a meaningful life. URGH!. but snce i knw myslf btter, i bet i cant even stnd a day wth the new plan of life. i got to find anothr plan laaaa camnih. hisy!

4aman (D)

sooo, here's the thing.. hari sbtu lpas ktorg buat jamuan kelas kt alamanda. it ws superb! nek bas gi almnda, mkan kt pizza hut, men kt arked, tgk wyang, kareoke (err, btul ke eja tu? whateva lah.) and lots of thngs. ktorg brtok dri skolah kul 10.15 pgi. SO DAMN LUCKY cuz bas ade air-cond. klau ta, perghhh... mau nnges aq kt ctu.. dlam bas as always, bdk laki cm havoc dkt blakng bas and bdk pmpuan yg bek kt dpan just borak dgn spe yg drasakan perlu. smpai sne mmsing dgan actvity sndiri. YADA3. ptutnye ktorg msuk pizza hut kul 1. bt snce ade lahhh manusia2 yg mmg ta pham bahasa tu melengah-lngahkan masa, kul 1.45 baru ktorg msuk pizza hut. bygkan, diorang da hbis mkan but ttibe na order ice-cream. eh, hello.. kami dah book tuk kul 1! korg dah lpak sne frm 12 to 1 tu okehlah. cukup2 lah. wtpe nan pnjng2kan masa lagi. bg la ktorg msuk lak. urgh! WHATEVA lah yerp skolah presnt ntah pape tu.. snce ktorg dah bhind schdule, ktorg cam rush gila. imgine 16 pizza buleh habis dlam masa 10-15 minit. ktorg na tgk wyang kul 2.15pm. msuk 1.45 tu un bukan sume org dduk.. kul 1.55 or 2 baru properly seated. bru dpt pggan and wht so eva. thanks to pizza hut, alamanda cuz srvce kt sne mmg bgus. cpt jerr..  hbis jer pizza, ktorg rush ke cnema lak. na brjlan and trun esclator tu un da amek mse 10min. yg bestnye, ktorg beli ticket DEATH PLACE which is for 18abve. igt en alamnda pnye cnema ta ya check2 iC. rupenye2 kene gak. so, qila bg arhan, ktorg follow jerp. nt the whole class lahh. just to 5 of us. nano and dy lpas. aq?. well, sgkut. HAHAHAHA. y? ta bwk iC. heheh. habit ta bwk iC ni mmg da ta buleh ubah dah. luckly, aftr half an hour qila debtd ngn aby wyang tu, dy ckp "now, u pgi dpan then aftr 2 or 3 mins u dtg blik.." so yea, i did it and when i cme bck, dy siap escrd nek escltor agi. smpai jerr ats qila ckp 'OHHH. gatal yer...' both of us just smiled and i thankd him. (p/s: abg tu cute.. HAHAHAHA).. msuk jer wyang, igt en boleh ddk sng. tup2. bru jerr na dduk, sluar aq kne sos cili kpunyaan org seat sbelah. dy cam panic gila bile aq cam na tggi suara. kalu ta dsbbkan wyang yang dah stat, dah lme akk tu kne sound. dah nmpak org na dduk, ta reti2 ker na alih kan bkas mkanan awak tuu. saya ni baru masuk. tempat tu gelap. mana lah saya nampak awak punya bekas makanan. nasib baik awak ada  bagi saya tissue. hilang sikit marah saya.. igt na gi ladies, bt snde sume mmber cam intrstd gila na tgk. aq diam jer lah. lckly, bru 5min dduk, qila ajak gi toilet. i ws like 'THANKS QILA. GOD BLESS YOU!' .. tu jer. yg len tu biarlah jdi scret.. huhO..

okay,

aku mmg da lama ta brblog-ing. why?. well, aq lupa psswrd and mail ape yg aq pkai. dsyat en. ala, bnde tak pnting wtpe igt. pelik la ttbe jerr na type bnyak2.  erm, how's my day? not as good as i expected. my sbf which i hoped would accompanied me till the end of the day went to mcD with his friends. he didn't tell me that cuz his phone sumhow out of batterty. well, maybe its a good decision to left me be behind as i knw i'm kinda a boring type prson. why? well, it just how my brain work. wheneva i'm with him i became cluelss, blur and i dont knw... shy mybe. that's why i usually do the remain-silent part while he do all the talking part. i'm done about him. now, back to my day... i went to rumah hantu that the prefects organizd and sriously switie, i just laugh when i see them. the sound effct ws gud enough but the what-so-called hantu tu, mmg kelakar okay. blik tu gelap. and sbb gelap sgt lahh aku asik langgar org and hntu yg ada. ade hntu tu siap tlg tnjuk jlan lagi tau. baek kan diorg. we spend like an hour Q-ing just to gt in thre. the sound of sceaming made by the juniors send a thrill pulse in us. we got high ecpectations on the rumah hantu tu. but after an hour and ad half JUST Q-ing, we gave up. penat taw tak!. kerusi pun takde. barisan punye la pnjang. dah dkat na blek plak tu. thats y we gave up. but 10minutes before 12.30, we got V.I.P pass. sorrylahh yerrr para junior. ur senior ni mmg suka-suki langgar peraturan. all credits goes to saidatul and abang hafiz. wthout them we probbly DON'T EVEN got a chance to gt in thre. the intrsting part about the rumah hntu ws the junior keep sceaming like the actual ghost wre really thre and they saw it. mkin kuat diorg mnjerit mkin aaa ktorg ni tringin na msuk. but bile dah msuk, ktorg ktawa tak henti2. time klua tadi terpikir gak nape junior tu jerit2 cam na rak.. bt still tade jwapan.. mybe time ktorg msuk tu hntu dah pnat kut. tu yg tak seram sgt. thun ni pnye hari koko mmg TAK BEST langsung yerrr. ade kerr ptut 2 khemah tu just utk pmeran haiwan and jual2 rabbt. haih.